Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Resolution #1

I want to find the Joy in my life in 2007. The past year was not much about Joy. It was about survival...surviving pressure, surviving disappointment, surviving loss, surviving life. I don't want to just survive. God doesn't want that for me either. I want Joy, I want to know what I'm here for and I want to pursue that instead of getting lost in the details. I've spent at least a year crossing the details off of a really long list of things to do because that meant survival. Details meant I didn't have to think about what's really wrong with my life, didn't have to think about my fears. No time for that, I have to accomplish the next thing on the list. Now that I've pretty much run out of list, I have to come up with a better plan. What is joy? Here's a definition:
joy: noun (plural joys)
1. great happiness: feelings of great happiness or pleasure, especially of an elevated or spiritual kind

Now, how do I get there?