Stepping out...and then back?

I am confused. I don't really mind admitting it because it happens pretty often, but I'm just not sure what to think. Does this ever happen to you? I feel like I've made a calm, rational decision accompanied by prayer and an earnest desire to be in God's will. So why am I not successful? Or happy? Or even sure that this place is on God's map for my life? In this place in my life, I have no time for anything more than work. It's temporary, but I'm feeling that I might be on the wrong track. If it were the right track, would I feel like God is saying:

I want you to build strong relationships with Christian friends. You need to be in Bible study.

I want you to influence your friends and family. You need to be teaching a Bible study. And controlling your temper. And putting in the time.

I want you to make an impact here at home. You need to be involved in a ministry. Remember the ESL classes? You could do that.

I want you to make an impact on the world. You know that mission trip? Yes. Go.

I want you to use the gifts I've given you: intelligence, humor, and a love of writing, reading, and study. For me.

And right now, I feel like not even one of these things can be accomplished along with my current ambition. So how do I know when to make the change? Could the total peace that I felt making the first decision to get here have been wrong? Maybe it was confidence in my own ability to be in control. Confidence is unusual for me! Maybe that's why I mistook it for something else. Or can the pulls that I feel to do more be combined with my life as it is? I'm confused. And this verse comes to mind "Seek ye first the kingdom of God...":

Matthew 6 (from the Message translation)
30-33"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

34"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.

God, please make my path clear.