Maybe tomorrow

Warning: this is a funky feeling day and I think this post is going to be a total downer. I'm just in a weird mood, a little sad because I worked on taxes all night and some this morning before I came in to work (and boy, am I going to pay, pay, pay). Two things are upsetting me: looking at all the prescriptions my mother paid for, doctors she visited, tests she had and knowing how much of that she carried all alone and looking at all the tax forms marked DECEASED. I just can't get away from remembering that last minute. And then I listened to Christian music on the way in to work, so I'm still a mess. Thank goodness I have hope for the future because today appears to be a total downer! Maybe I'll snap out of it. I put the flower up because I want to be cheered up, and if yellow flowers (even though they are technically the weeds taking over my backyard) don't do it, nothing will! Thinking good things: yellow flowers, yarn, puppies (insert token Darcy shot here)...


MercyMe's Homesick lyrics
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again